LibrarianAnna's Blog

Do you know that song – “Luckiest” – it’s perhaps, one of my favorites and totally says how I feel about my mothers day.  Even though I was thrown up on twice, dealt with a fussy-bucket of a daughter, and didn’t get a waffle – the day was excellent.  I am so grateful for matthew and zoe and the rest of my family.  I got to speak to my mom on skype and have dinner with Helen, Gene, Jon and Chieu.  To wrap up the evening I spent time watching the videos of zoe that I had from Zoes birth on – it truly made my day.

Well now I have positive vibes to help me through this week!

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It has been 3 months since I had Zoe. Wow, 3 months. 3 months since I last worked, since Matthew and I were just a couple, and at least three months since I could sleep to my hearts content.  

It’s been a crazy three months, that’s for sure. First was my attempts at having a natural birth – that didn’t happen – so surgery was it. Then it was welcoming this tiny baby into the world and trying to figure out how to breastfeed.  Talk about pain!! Then simultaneously I dealt with a sick child (jaundice) and my own sickness (post partum depression).  PPD was probably the scariest thing ever – how does a person, who loves all children, feel so ambilvalent towards her own child? It was most certainly scary.  Thankfully I had some great family and friends who helped me through those first few weeks…and months.

And now that I feel comfortable with myself as a mom I am going back to work.  Now I have to figure out how to be a worker and a mom – I think I can do it.  We’ve been fortunate to find a great babysitter for Zoe – I’m so excited for Zoe to grow up with Leyna (our babysitters daughter) in her life…a pseudo big sister  But with work stuff I’ll have to relearn some things – mainly how to be speedy at my work, but I’ll also have the opportunity to change things too. 

All in all I’m pretty excited to go back to work, yet sad to not have those special moments with Zoe.  However, I am so happy she is in my life – I’m one very blessed mother

And why am I updating it at 6:30 am?!?

Well because swine flu has kicked my ass – ugh.  All the precautions; hand sanitizer like a whoa, not touching my face, the h1n1 shot 1 week ago… and I still got it.  Thankfully the doc’s think it’s somewhat weakened because I don’t have a fever, aches, or the chills.  I came down with a cough on Tuesday, saw my family doc on Wednesday who said I had bronchitis (probably true), had a HORRIBLE night of not breathing and finally saw my Allergist on Thursday.  She didn’t think it was h1n1 but took the extra precaution to have me get swabbed for Influenza A while we were doing my breathing treatments.  That swab came back positive for Influenza A and 99% of positives are also positive for h1n1, so instead of doing a test that would take weeks to know, I took one that I  knew in an hour.  So the thing they want to get under control is the breathing, because if I can’t breathe, baby can’t breathe.  I’m on Tamiflu, an antibiotic, and a nebulizer to get the breathing meds to my lungs.  They also gave me a shot of a steroid.  It seems to be working – my cough is still here, but not as tight and it has definitely loosened up my chest.  But as we can see, I’m not sleeping at 6AM   I do have to say, I slept fairly well till about 5 am and then I got up a few times due to coughing and now I decided to play on the computer until my cough drop is gone.  Luckily I’m on the couch so I’m not bothering Matthew.

Can I say how lucky I am to have Matthew?  He was a sweetheart and came home yesterday to take care of me – I was a mess, crying and freaking out – all before I knew I had h1n1.  He took me to the doc, drove me around to get my swabbing, picked up my meds and is in general, making me feel better   Yep I’m one lucky lady to have him

And still kicking me, literally as I type, is Zoe Marie   That’s right we’re having a girl and we chose the name Zoe Marie   I’m definitely worried about this flu stuff with her but I have a great doc, and an even better Mother-in-Law who are watching out for her.  This past week to two weeks I can really feel her kicking away.  It’s kinda funny – like I’ll be driving to work and she’ll start kicking my upper belly in the same spot at random intervals. Kick, pause, pause, kick, kick, pause, pause, pause, kick, pause, kick, pause. For about 20 kicks she did this!  It made me chuckle, and the kicks were hard enough that I could feel them outside my belly   Oh and yesterday I’m pretty sure she head-butted, or butt-butted me, lol, I had my hand on my belly and felt a HUGE bump that couldn’t have been a hand or a foot!  I think with all of her movement it’s really made me excited to do the 3D/4D ultrasound with my family in Florida We’ll be able to see her again!

Alright, time to go do another breathing treatment so this coughing will stop and I can get some more sleep for a few hours.  Promise, I’ll try and update more often!